Thursday, November 23, 2006

oh well. i remember the last post. i said i was metallic bond. guess not. i m not an malleable and ductile as i tot i was. woke up this morning feeling like crap. den as i lay there, depressing thoughts just came and filled my head. not feeling too well, just went back to sleep.

just woke up la. having a splitting headache, at least the heat i felt earlier was gone. just had that feeling of loneliness and helplessness. wish i could stay at home and wallow in self pity but guess not la. have bs later. shall try and sober myself up by den.

but i think my saving grace really is that lunch invite. thanks dude, i was gonna message u and say i couldnt make it for dinner, feeling quite crap that i was gonna spend this day more or less alone without anyone close to talk to, den i saw ur message. haha. starting to miss loads of my frens from barker. u know, its like i come to pj but no matter how many people i know, it just doesnt feel the same. not that i dun like pj, i think its great, i just think i have to stop focusing my life on one person and start building more lasting and meaningful frenships. nictan, time to turn on that counselling button u turned off in jan.

oh wells. at least tmrs gonna be a fruitful day, take my mind off certain stuff, considering how little i have studied this week, council study prog might actually be a good thing, at least it ll aid in getting the momentum going.

i m going nuts over the merchandise. the deadline i actually set for myself was supposed to be tmr, lets hope i can do it by gm, the graphics are quite hard to do. at least i did that design for council shirt, thats something to feel accomplished for.

for the rest of today, i shall chase that sense of fulfilment. heh. man i need to cheer up. if theres always one thing i admired myself for, it would be my energy and optimisim, lets revive that, shall we.

really looking forward to all the camps and chalets that i m gonna have. shall dispel abit of the gloom at surrounds me at the moment.

and for all those hu r reading. sorry if i sound random or if i just dun make sense, i m just having an outpouring of feelings that i m not giving much thought about and i ll just vomiting out on my blog but at the same time trying to do a post that some would understand. heh. yar. i m not doing a very good job. m i.

oh wells. i guess wad i say is correct. we can never truly comprehend the complexity of it all. which is wad we live. which is life! wad drives ur life? wads ur motivation? i need to rediscover mine now. bye!

|cowpoo| 11:07 AM|

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